I think I got lost this past week… time slipped through my fingers like soft ocean sand and suddenly I am looking back and wondering where it went, where I went.
I found myself thinking about a time in Joshua Tree when I wandered off into the desert to clear my mind. The farther I wandered, the more I began to think I had veered off the path or taken a wrong turn. Ahead of me was a open space with large boulders spread about like sleeping stones, each one big enough to lie down and stretch out on yet not clustered as to have drawn my concern for sleeping snakes.
I laid back on this gently curved stone. Closing my eyes, I felt into the silence of the surrounding desertscape. No cars, no voices, no phones ringing or chiming. It is an unusual silence that at first felt sharp, like it was pressing me into the rock, but then I began to hear something. Turns out, I was listening to my own heartbeat as it pounded in my chest, louder than the desert silence.
I listened even closer and could almost hear a double heartbeat as mine slowed with my breathing so I could listen. The sound was coming from the rock I was lying on. It was a slow, deep beat that my own heart was trying to match. I breathed in slower and held my breath between beats.
My heartbeat slowed to join the boulders as they reminded me of who I am, who I am becoming, and who I will be. I wasn’t lost. I had only drifted away from listening to the rhythm of my own sacred drumbeat, the song of my soul.
I opened my eyes to a crimson sky as the sun settled behind the distant hills. As I sat up, I caught a glimpse of the full moon rising in the east, almost orange in the evening sky. The message I took away from the boulders, the rhythm, and the rising moon was to honor my accomplishments, manifest my best intentions, always express gratitude, and let go of whatever old patterns and habits that have been blocking my process of remembering.
When I came back fully into myself, I discovered that I was stretched out on my comfy chair, all alone in a quiet house, Darby curled up under the foot of the recliner.
I was once again puzzled by where the time had gone and how I managed to slip away to the desert in the middle of the afternoon while hubby was off shopping with our daughter.
I read in DailyOm that “being lost” may be the Universe’s way of nudging me toward deeper self-discovery. Things that make me go hmmmm. If time got away or “I” went away, where do I go back for the wisdom and transformation the Universe was nudging me toward? How about my comfy chair in the silence of a darkened night when the TV has gone to bed with my hubby. 😊
I think one of the most profound ah-ha’s I will go in search of once more, is the answer to this question… What makes my heart sing? What set’s my soul on fire? How can I use my soul’s fire to ignite my heart’s desire?
I am off to find that boulder again.
Have a wonder-filled weekend under the light of a full moon and listen for the song in your heart.
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Vicki Dobbs is a bold and adventurous warrior walking a path of heart to manifest spirituality in everyday lives. She opens existential gateways for individuals to face their challenges and embrace these tests as the great teachers that they are.
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