Warning: Truth spoken here this week; not pretty, maybe messy, but it is what it is in my world today.
These past several months, even couple of years, have been tough. I write optimistic, inspirational, positive food for thoughts to keep from being steamrolled by my own emotions.
I haven’t shared a lot about the goings on in my world, but I think it is time that I be real with the dark, hard, and challenging aspects of it; living with my Good Enemies.
My husband is walking a journey with cancer, and it is getting tougher. Sometimes it feels like we are standing at the “rivers edge,” no boat in sight and the water’s rising. Fear stands beside us.
You all know about the debacle of my knee replacement surgeries that have challenged my steadiness and balance, my ability to walk forward, standing tall. Now my back has decided to challenge me to just get up out of my comfy chair, let alone fix dinner or do the laundry. Doubt crowds into the room.
A few months ago, a pet scan spotted a nodule in my left lung, and my emotions took a steamroll down the “what if I have cancer too?” hill. Anxiety pushes its way in between Doubt and Fear.
And then, my sister calls to deliver the news that she was just given a difficult diagnosis. Uncertainty pops its head up above the growing crowd. Blessings be, at least there is the hope of a positive outcome at the end of her journey.
A few days after her call, the biopsy results came in for me and with so much gratitude, it disclosed it is not lung cancer, it is valley fever. Geeze, I don’t even know anyone who has had that but in researching this, it turns out that it is caused by a fungus in the soil in CA and across the southwest (so AZ too). Good news is, I have no symptoms and there isn’t much to do about it at this point. Wait for another scan this winter steeped in gratitude.
“This life is a journey,” I read in an email from Dr. Marie Mbouni this morning. In it she shares her journey from the destruction of the LA fires to her own sisters health diagnosis. As she put it, “Standing between fear and faith, between life and surrender.”
I am now at that place where she spoke from… my body, mind, heart, and soul feel stripped and ask for stillness. That is a difficult place for me to find, but I try. And this season of the new moon is a time for letting go. I am finding that for me; the important thing is that I have to give my emotional system some much-needed attention, an outlet, a relief valve for the pressure that builds before it blows.
Arizona used to be that place where I could let go of everything, release the tension, cry sometimes and scream at others. It is a sanctuary that feeds my heart and soul. In the absence of my ability to spend time there like I used to, I am craving stillness.
Our neighbors are building on to their home and every morning 7:00, the voices, the hammers, the machines, and the crazy music flow in through the open windows.
The heat has left our valley, and we are in the beautiful time of fall where open doors and windows let the fresh air and birdsongs in, yeah, along with all the goings-on next door. Ugh!
I have found music to write with on YouTube. It fills my room and blocks out the noise coming through my open office door (which I refuse to close). I want and I need the fresh air.
I will write with the music that inspires me and ignore the aggravating distractions surrounding me. As my mother used to say, “This too shall pass.”
May your days be filled with fresh air, sweet music, and the comfort of knowing that tomorrow brings a new day filled with bright blessings and an abundance of possibilities.
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I am very grateful to you all for hanging out with me in the sunshine and through the storms.
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Vicki Dobbs is a bold and adventurous warrior walking a path of heart to manifest spirituality in everyday lives. She opens existential gateways for individuals to face their challenges and embrace these tests as the great teachers that they are.
Her goal is to see everyone walk in beauty and balance every day of their lives empowered by the voice of their own authentic truth.
Through Wisdom Evolution and Sacred Wisdom Workshops, Vicki creates opportunities for others to make deep personal changes through experiential classes, ceremony, sacred art and story. She endeavors to inspire others to create their lives intentionally. Vicki is an Inspirator of everyday awareness, an Instigator of spontaneous stories and a Connoisseur of Creativity. Gratitude and grace sprinkled with humility and humor are the medicine she brings to the world.
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